Fear Not!

fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous  hand.
Isaiah 41:10 ESV

I used to be fearful that the devil was after me and I would die and go to hell.

I was 16 years old and very afraid of death.

I also, very ill as well with mental illnesses nobody knew I had and,  the enemy tried very hard to convince me that,  I was not worth being alive but,

even then my spirit knew in an uncompreansive way to me than  that I needed to be saved, to know Jesus and have a relationship with Him.

As I realized only a few years ago,the Holy Spirit that i received in the little Church when I was in my second orphanage at the age of 10 or 11, was knocking at my heart and comforting me ad well

I used to run off to to the garden of the orphanage at time when the confusion and fear took over and the pain came back. I realized unconsciously that I was very different from the other girls. It was difficult not to fit in.

After the sexual abuse at the age of  13, my mental illnesses where reacting in my spirit as well.

The Holy Spirit was in me but I did not know then. I survived all because The Spirit of God was always at my side and carried me all the days of my life then and now as we spend beautiful times together.

Well,  God IS good!